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 It started 5 years ago I had a decent job and so did my husband.  I was pregnant with our first child together and already raising two of my own and a step-daughter.  I gave birth to our daughter 4wks early and my comp pay was delayed for 6 weeks, and husband lost job 2 days after her birth..  We moved to my home state where it took 2 ms to find job, lived in 2 bedroom trailer with 4 kids. We filed bankruptcy paying 720 mnth for 5 years is hard.  Husband has since been laid off three times and my health had prohibited me from working.  I was pregnant in 2005, gave birth at 31 weeks, been on bed rest before then for 2 mnths, emergancy c-section 5 hours away from family in hospital, and had two more surgeries in 6weeks to follow. Son was okay at birth considering, but has since stayed sick, and has had surgeries, asthma, and sweat disorder. I want to work so bad but due to husbands hours and sons allergies, it is impossible. we don't live in trailer but still in three bedroom house it 's crowded.  I realy just want a sounding board.  We are about to get dismiissed from our bankruptcy but not because its through, we have missed payments.  My children had to start school nad it is so expensive.  We dont' qualify for aid.  Know one considers us paying out so much in bills we must do by law.  I guess we should have let the vehicles go.. how would we get to Drs.1 hour from here for my children???? How would husband get to work??? No public transportation here.This is just some of the bad luck we've had..... I just keep thinking its good luck with a cloud over it.. I could have died, my son could have died. There is a lining, its just hard to find through my dark cloud.  I just want to keep my cars,   not but 9 months left, and maybe we can catch up on our other billsand rent .   I am so unlike myself.  I cut my own hair now, go with out clothes and makeup,  it'sjust not me, but my kids and husband need it more than I. It just makes a women lose her idenity sometimes and is so depressing. I hope that I don't seem like a joke, I just need some answers. Anyone I have been a mother for thirteen years now since i was 19.  I have had such heat ache in trying to provide for my children and not ever staying on top hurts.